Monday, October 22, 2018

Invitational Exhibit at Micropolis Gallery

So, as you can see, I was invited to show at Micropolis Gallery. The one with the butterfly is a detail of one of my paintings that will be in the show.

The opening is November 2, from 5pm to 7pm. I'll be there, of course.

It is in the town of Gloversville in upstate New York, a place renowned for its glove making back when Americans used to make the attire for the nation. It is also a town that my father and some of his students helped to re-design and revitalize.  

Some other artists I know of are Carol Law Conklin, Cheryl Gutmaker, Linda Hinkle, Lynda Naske, Mary Frances Millet and Judith Plotner. These are all really good artists and will also be at the opening. 

See you there!

Monday, September 24, 2018

Butterfly in the Millefleurs

Butterfly in the Millefleurs 
original 5" x 7" (in a gallery)
as a print, purchase HERE if interested

I have been painting a lot of butterflies as of late. Butterflies are about transformation and a big change. Sometimes they signify hope too. But hope is different from the former two attributes in that it is an emotion with a thought, and perhaps even an idea. In a way, all three parts work in tandem. 

Jung believed in the symbolic relevance of animals, places, and things in dreaming and in inspirational states. I don't check on the symbolism usually until after I finish a piece, though I was aware of what the butterfly meant beforehand (it is because I paint them often). 

Even so, when you dream of white butterflies at night and paint them during the day, something of significance is being churned in your mind. 

In my dreams at night, the white butterflies are clustered on a plant, and there are so many that it is impossible to count them.

In my dream last night, many were both clustered, but even more were flying around the cluster in a big white whir, and I was sitting in the woods, trying to figure out why there were so many, and what was happening to make me dream so much about them. 

During the day however, I paint just one of them, usually in the center of a piece.

White butterflies signify healing, release of one's burdens, absolution, purity and purity of intent, along with transformation.

Purple butterflies signify keeping the faith, confidence, assurance and resolve (also with transformation).

So there are both white butterflies going through my mind, and purple butterflies with a lot of white in them. 

Does the butterfly fit with what I am going through in my life right now? Absolutely. Do I feel confident and full of resolve? Yes. Do I feel unburdened and absolved? Yes, especially in the way of justice and justification. Am I full of hope? Yes.  

So, when you look at a piece, or you are attracted to a piece enough to buy it and put it on your wall, think about whether you can relate to the questions above.

The next two versions are meant to be used as tapestries, but for now they are sold as duvets, totes, pillows, and prints:

 Butterfly Tapestry Design
© 2018
buy products and prints HERE if interested

Butterfly Tapestry Design in Mustard, Red and Green
© 2018
buy products and prints HERE if interested

Until next time ...

Sunday, September 9, 2018

"Bunny Nest with Red Flowers and White Butterflies", new from my studio

"Bunny Nest with Red Flowers and White Butterflies"
© 2018
available for sale as prints or on products through this link
contact me if interested in the original: sales (att)

This is part of a series of bunnies taking naps. 

For this one, I had in mind a child's room. The parents are trying to get their little one off to sleep and point to the bunny on the wall: "See how that bunny is sleeping and smiling because he is having a happy dream?" Hint, hint ...

These parents don't really like the usual decor of bright neon colors that a lot of children's rooms have. They want something more subtle, more in the tradition of the Renaissance, or older English illustrations for children's books. So they pick this piece for their child's room.

Or this piece because it's even more subtle: 

"Bunny Nap with Red Flowers"
© 2018
available for sale as prints or on products through this link

A pillow might send your loved one off to sleep too:

pillows available for sale through this link

Or how about a nice soft blanket to curl up with?:

two types of blankets for sale through this link

or a duvet cover:

duvet cover available through this link

what about a round beach towel that your kid can take into his room fort (or, on second thought, to the beach):
 round towel available for sale through this link

Or this journal to write his dreams in:

notebook available for sale through this link

Baby Onesie:

kid's teeshirt:

an idea for framing:

framed prints available for sale through this link
choose frames with drop-down (including all of the various frame colors)
this one is around 11" x 14" with a MQ9 frame found under silver frames (in drop-down)
and a mat that is arctic white with black core mat (in drop-down)

I tend to think people are attracted to artwork sometimes through the symbolism (subconsciously), and this piece has a lot of positives in that department:

* white bunny: new perceptions and manifestations; signifies something at work for the highest good
* white butterflies: protection, fortune, messages from the spirit world
* vines: continuity, traditions in ones life
* red tulip-like flowers with thorns: true love, eternal love, undying love, yet with a few protective measures
* small yellow flowers: happiness in the small things, friendship
* purple daisies: dignity, pride, success
* bountiful fauna: material well being

Here's another piece along the same lines (with all of the same kinds of products):

"Bunny Nest of Yellow Roses and Blueberries"
available for sale through this link

a lot more art and products for sale via

I'll be back soon enough ...

Saturday, September 8, 2018

My Lilac Morgana Dress from Holy Clothing

The Holy Clothing Company sent me an e-mail nudging me to write a review with a photo, but I don't see an icon for uploading a photo, so I thought I'd put the photo here (if you are a musician like I am, this clothing company might be the perfect place to go to find dresses to perform in).

I also use this dress for country and small town art gallery openings. I suppose I'd wear it to a wedding too, but I haven't been invited to one for awhile. 

The photo was taken today! out in a field (yes the goldenrod is in full bloom and I am holding some of it -- just beautiful here this time of year).

It is a quasi-Renaissance dress (long) with a low neckline, velvet, a satin-type of fabric (probably rayon) and the kind of fabric that we typically associate with rayon, all with beautiful embroidery throughout. I am bending over, and I look kind of short here, but I assure you that I'm tall, 5' 10".

The only thing about this company is that the clothes come smelling heavily of dye, so you have to wash it several times to get it out. Mine came with quite a bit more red in it, but calmed down to a nice lilac color.

I found this company via a lot of my fantasy art friends. It would be perfect for selling art at fantasy art conventions too (just add wings!).

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

Blackmore's Night Concert

getting ready for the Blackmores Night concert
in partial Renaissance garb (no vest or skirt because it was a hot humid day)

(more pictures at end of post)

For anyone new to my blog, this blog is primarily about talking about my music and art, and occasionally about my influences, my life experiences and sometimes about my research as well.

For those of you from the survivor community (of which there seems to be an exponential number), part of my life is devoted to art and music which I feel uplifts the spirit, and gives it more meaning.

For me spiritual art, fantasy art, and Renaissance music was part of my life since I was a child, and it is what gets me through my days. There are a lot of places, people and events which helped me to survive terrible odds, and the Renaissance community was one of them. I have performed at a lot of Renaissance faires (the innocent smaller ones with lots of children floating around in fairy costumes, blowing bubbles, riding dragons or big Clydesdales, taking part in magic tricks, while the adults seemed to be drawn to the music of the era, archery, costume exhibits and people-chess) and in my upcoming novel I feature the Renaissance faire in a somewhat similar way the minstrels are featured in the Bergman movie, The Seventh Seal.

When I am taken off course, it is the life I always go back to.

One of the bands who has played a role in my life is Blackmore's Night ... in many, many ways (some of which I will explain here). I dress in Renaissance attire when I see them, to show support, but also to be more true to myself (when I was a little girl, as far back as I can remember in almost all of my floating and flying dreams I was dressed in white Renaissance outfits, and it is the way I wanted to dress and be dressed). I cry because I am so touched and moved when I go to the Cloisters or the tapestry part of the Metropolitan Museum of Art. I get emotional when I hear Greensleeves or an olde Child Ballad. I have a compulsion to paint unicorns all of the time (the unicorn is a solitary creature who cannot be tamed and is in the habit of fighting for its life and purifying poisons -- fits).

I like cloaks, poet's shirts, flowing outfits (much of which I sew myself), and in a pinch, clothes from Holy Clothing. I like flora and fauna and gypsy caravans. I like stained glass and old stone buildings.

I like being healthy. I am not much of an indulger in modern processed foods and drinks, unless I am on vacation (and even there, I try to find salad joints and Indian restaurants and stay away from booze and caffeine drinks which have more franken-stuff in them than I want to consume -- it's that unicorn in me pointing to poisoned waters no doubt -- LOL).

I prefer reading (actual books) to television.

In contrast, I am not a fan of freeways, malls, dry deserts, polyester outfits, neon, and boxy modern glass-infected architecture. Los Angeles is my least favorite city in the USA ("please let me out!"). Maybe that had to do with my father who was a New Urbanist, but I think it is partly intuitive too: I have a love of the highly decorated and intricate, much of which is lacking in the big cities of the southwest. After all, the natural world is not a factory or loud; it is full of seeds and fruits on lace-like intricate trees with birds singing in them, and it will always juxtapose the boxes and homogenization. It is fine if you want to live in the southwest and I won't be too judgmental about it to the point of obnoxiousness: but for me it feels oppressive. I like moody weather, big trees, meadows, flowers everywhere, or a rolling sea, a little more humidity in the air. It's just my taste.

"They paved paradise and put up a parking lot" -- Joni Mitchell

A fulfilled life is a life outside of a box, the intricate world of ideas, compassion, emotions and implementation.

So, I feel like the Blackmores Night die hard fans to be like family. They come marching up the street together (after having met at a local eatery) and I take to my feet in giddy delight to greet them. I have been walking around town beforehand with people stopping me asking me where the Ren-fest is or "What's with the get-up?" I am shy and I like my anonymity on a street (usually). So the fans who go to all of the shows in the northeast are part of not feeling like a freak. I am one of them. Later, when I see costumed maids and faire maidens in the restrooms at intermission, there is a knowing glance and smile between us.

When Candice (the singer and introducer of songs) mentions that her husband (Ritchie, the producer, conductor, melody maker and main musician) does not like boxes, I can immediately relate, on all kinds of levels.

The Seventh Seal is one of my favorite movies, and for lack of a better comparison, they are a kind of a Seventh Seal type of band (modernized somewhat as one might expect). There is a carnival-like atmosphere to their shows, interspersed with powerful and sensitive songs like "World of Stone" (about fighting for causes), "Ghost of a Rose"(one of my favorites) and "Barbara Allen" (beautiful, lilting). At other times, one almost expects jesters and leaping dancers in chiffon-fairy to pop onto the stage at intervals when the band goes from soft to loud (when Candice gets her rauschpfeife and shawm out).

Here are the influences of Ingmar Bergman when working on the Seventh Seal (from Wikipedia):

In his autobiography, The Magic Lantern, Bergman wrote that "Wood Painting gradually became The Seventh Seal, an uneven film which lies close to my heart, because it was made under difficult circumstances in a surge of vitality and delight."[14]...

... Some of the powerful influences on the film were Picasso's picture of the two acrobats, Carl Orff's Carmina Burana, Strindberg's dramas Folkungasagan ("The Saga of the Folkung Kings") and The Road to Damascus,[29] the frescoes at Härkeberga church and a painting by Albertus Pictor in Täby church ...

Somehow, I tend to think Blackmore's Night can relate to all of that. 

And if I look within myself, I can relate to it too (Picasso's acrobats and jester paintings are definitely an influence of mine, as I paint and draw jesters religiously, especially on pottery, and Carl Orff's "Carmina Burana" is one of my favorite pieces of all time). 

I have been asked "Does Candice ever experience suffering and hardship like the rest of us or is the world just an endless fairy tale?" And my answer to that is that, as in the Seventh Seal, some of us are spared. And that is a good thing. If her life is about joy, this is the type of person who can lead you to joy too (i.e. the path out of darkness and depression). Perhaps her life's purpose is to bring beauty, to help you experience a love of life, a dance in your step, and we need those kinds of people in our world or it would be sore. Again, it's about intricacy and seeds, folks, and the variety, not about placing everyone in the same box you are in.

If you think misery loves company, you won't find much misery in their music.

There isn't a band like Blackmore's Night. They are about exploration and the non-traditional, and there isn't a song they do where they don't make that very clear. Ritchie has his dark melancholy side and it hits the light as soon as Candice puts lyrics to it, dances to it, and sings it. When I am asked to describe their music, I say, "Creative Music." If I am asked to explain more it is usually "Mainly influenced by Renaissance music mixed with folk, classical and rock, nothing defined in a definite way, just masterfully done creativity." The person asking the question usually looks puzzled. I would think that an answer like that would get them to one of their shows to see what it is all about.

As for the other band members, my feeling is that they are the best line-up so far. Lady Lynn (as she is referred to) is the classical opera singer who sings harmonies with Candice Night. The 4 octave range is a nice complement to Candice Night's vocals. The fiddler is one of the best on the circuit and has excellent resonance -- wow! The bassist/complimentary guitarist, Earl Grey, has been with them for quite a long time and knows instinctively how to keep up the pace with Ritchie. David, the pianist, adds humor when he can, and adds coloring to the pieces through synths. 

I feel that I can relate to them on a deeper level too. We perform Renaissance music too (new interpretations), but I like the English composers most (Dowland and Campion) and their often incomprehensible (word salad-y)  lyrics about unrequited love. Our take on Renaissance music, however, is quite a bit more annoying to purists than theirs, because Dowland is seen as a great composer, one of the ones who started the whole counterpoint thing and used it religiously, and which we don't always use, and you can't mess with great composers in their eyes, so while we sold a lot of CDs to Europeans, in the USA we didn't get very far with it for live concerts beyond library concert series. As difficult as it was to be sneered at and rejected by purists, I still have a compulsion to work over Dowland's songs. I think the same kind of rebelliousness lives within their hearts too.

I am part of a family of professional musicians who like to play old instruments including the hammered dulcimer, Celtic harp and lately, the hurdy gurdy. Cello or double bass help to ground it all to the earth, and when needed, provide a drone. So we are committed to Renaissance music. My husband thinks that good traditional music should be played so that it doesn't disappear, that it always should be accessible to new generations. I'm not sure how that fits in with my vision to be creative with old songs, but we get along and we don't butt heads, so there is compatibility with both perspectives, at least as far as the two of us are concerned.

If you are a believer in astrology, I found that everything in my chart was aspected to everything in Candice's chart with many in exact degrees, most of it positively aspected (her chart happens to be on-line somewhere, or once was). Very unusual, in fact so uncommon as to be freakish. Since Ritchie's chart is also aspected to just about everything in Candice's chart too, also in the same kind of once-in-a-lifetime way, I have more than the common amount of aspects with his chart as well. Right now I don't know if we have an unbelievable amount of things in common, but I do know the commonalities we share in music and in being creative people. If astrology has any clout at all, there would practically be lightening bolts of understanding and psychic connection with them. It would be a good test to see if astrology really works on any level. "Like attracts like", but I also know what it is like to be approached when you are a performer, and especially a singer -- you don't need connections forced on you when you are in "work mode", that's for sure, having been in that position myself, so it will happen organically if it is meant to happen at all. 

In the meantime sharing visions with people who are on the same kind of curcuit has been rewarding: Owain Phyfe, Lisa Lynne, Laurie Ann Haus and other "ethereals" and musicians who are part of bringing Renaissance music forward, and fantasy artists Lisa Hunt, Ann Marie Tornabene, Paulina Cassidy, Andrew Gonzalez, Susan Schroder, Suzanne Gyseman, and others who inspire me. And of course there is the Harper and the Minstrel, who from long ago, welcomed us (Spirites Consort) with open arms. They are all kindred spirits and if I died tomorrow, I would be happy to have made only those personal connections.

Profound connections lead to healing and great understanding, all necessary in life, and the connections juxtapose those who would judge you and stick you in roles (the kind of boxes of projected judgments and false imprisonments of narrow minded narcissism). All souls want to be understood and free. All souls want to see someone at intermission who gives that knowing smile. And all souls want to vibrate to a kind of music where it helps them understand more about the world and their place in it. For me, Blackmores Night opens up the gates of awareness in many ways, and I just have to sit in a theater, even in the last aisle if I have to, to have them effect me in that way.

created by Jim Manngard (my picture on a wine bottle). 
Jim is Ritchie Blackmore's assistant and part of the Blackmore's Night sound team

standing outside squinting in the hot sun hours before the concert

Monday, March 12, 2018

Soar: white horse art

available for sale as a print or on a number of products HERE

Here are some of the products that come in this listing:

This is roughly a 15" x 20" print.
The frame is under black frames and is GL8
The mat is Arctic White with Black Core
Available for sale HERE
choose sizes, frame, mat, etc from drop-down

Here is what it looks like above a couch (and yes, as a 15" x 20" print):

Next up are some products:

Here is a how it looks as a greeting card (packs of cards are also available):

choose background color.
choose as a single or in a pack
This one is: #1b03ea
available for sale HERE

Here is how it looks as a weekender tote (note, the background is still #1b03ea):
Weekender Tote Bag
use slider to fit picture in
available for sale HERE

Here is how it looks on:

The original is acrylic on paper, 11" x 14" and for sale in a 16" x 20" silver frame. It is in a local gallery, but you can contact me if you are interested: sales((att)) 

Here is the best I could do with appearance (the real frame is less towards the beige spectrum and more towards true silver):

Here are the symbolic meanings in the piece:

* horse: balance of wisdom and power
* white horse: transformation, beginning and ending, freedom without restraint, purity, sometimes a sign of wealth and prosperity
* stars: inspiration, intuition, dreams
* vines: the eternal, infinity
* white trees: connection to our true identity, revolutionary wisdom, enlightenment

Until next time ...

Sunday, March 11, 2018

Magazine Model App, a distraction from making art

APP PHOTO OF MOI: makeup and airbrushed to make me look like a magazine model
If you want to try out their APP, CLICK HERE to do it

So, I had some fun with an app one night that makes one look like a magazine model. It's floating around, and a lot of people I know have tried it. 

There are a lot of these kinds of apps these days: what you'd look like if you were a man, for instance. Never tried it. In fact, I never try any of them because downloading an app usually means a lot of unwanted junk gets loaded onto your computer and then you find that you often want to remove it (if you know how to). 

In the original photo I'm not wearing any make-up at all, not a speck of it, so what I look like with  makeup is accurate. The airbrushing is what takes away the details of your face: the subtle dimples on the side of my face, the few extra lines under my eyes, the higher plumper cheek bones that I have, and everyone I know who has tried the app says it whitens the eyes around the pupil. Yup. But I understand that this is what is done to fashion models and to Hollywood stars posing for magazines. Glam is all of the rage.

Would I be happy with the results if it was for an actual magazine shoot? Probably, as a photo, but I actually hate to wear make up. I don't like the way it feels, and mostly I feel phony and not myself when I have it on. Close-up, too, eyelashes clump together in a kind of shiny gooey way. 

For performing on stage, I do wear a brown eyeliner and a lipstick that matches my own lip color which is naturally a rosy color (the lipstick smooths out the color). 

Here is another photo (taken from the photo in my banner atop this page) -- again, in the original photo I am not wearing any make up at all, and yes, my side dimples aren't apparent in the mag one either:

This one is from my website: 

Here are a couple more:

I have just finished a painting this morning and will be loading it very soon.